The adjustment is rather challenging however. Mostly, I see how it impacts those I care about most. The ones who care about me. I think this is harder on them than me in some ways. That said, they allow me to deal with this situation in my own way, which is to stay as independent as possible. With my spine in the shape that it is in, work is out of the question for me. I do what I can, but it is limited. I still get out and do some field work on a tractor now and again on the family farm, but that is only on a good day, and only for an hour or two. Still, it is outdoors and good for me.
My diagnosis came late, a lot of damage had already been done. Had this been another form of cancer, the diagnosis would have been considered late stage 3 or early stage 4. I had been working a lot of hours at the time and did not get to a doctor when I should have.
When I did get to them, they did a fantastic job. The fact that I am alive is due to the support of my family first, and then to the medical professionals who have worked diligently to monitor and treat me. I have learned so much along the way.
It is really a very interesting disease. When one gets into the science of it, it makes it easier to sort of dissociate a bit and just deal with the cancer as a puzzle of sorts. It also makes it easier to compartmentalize it in such a way that one is not constantly thinking about it. I have other things to do than just sit around and think / worry about this stuff. It may not be very important or productive stuff, but it is the stuff of living.
The basic trajectory has been:
Diagnosis in early 2013.
Followed by radiation and Revlimid.
Leading to an autologous bone marrow transplant in March of 2014.
Subsequently, Revlimid / dex until it stopped working in October of 2016.
Started Velcade / dex which was supplemented with Darzalex. Velcade was stopped due to severe distal neuropathy in February 2017. My current treatment is Darzalex / dex.
Will see how long that lasts ...
That is my story, and I am sticking with it ....
