She fought this horrible disease for 13 months. Apparently she had a very aggressive form of the disease and everything we tried failed. She had a stem cell transplant in January, which lasted barely 2 months before she was back on chemo (Revlimid and dex). She was on this, and everything went well for a couple months but then she started to deteriorate again. After numerous more tests it was found she had amyloidosis in her liver. Her platelets kept dropping and blood she was given just dispersed through her body, causing massive bruising. The doctors told us there was nothing more they could do, but she could go to a hospice.
She declined, saying that all she wanted to do was to come home, and be in her own bed looking out on her own garden and be with my dad, me and my two brothers. She came out of hospital on the Friday and had a good weekend chatting to us, surrounded by those she loved and who loved her. She passed away peacefully in the early hours of Tuesday morning holding my dads hand.
I love you so so much Mum and I am so proud of you for the way that you dealt with your disease. You were so strong and brave and never ever complained. You put up with all the chemo and the horrible stem cell transplant and all the sickness and pain and still always had a smile for us, and an "I love you."
I don't know how I am going to carry on without ever seeing your smile or your face again. Without talking to you again, or hearing you laugh. But I take comfort that you are no longer suffering, that you no longer have myeloma wherever you are Mum.
I miss you so so much and will always love you, and you will always be with me in my heart and memories.
You were the best mum. I love you so so much. Always will xxx
