[RagtopSL]

If it were not for hard luck there would be no luck at all

by RagtopSL on Wed Apr 11, 2012 12:30 am

Ok I know everyone has problems and I guess no noe needs to hear mine. But I have no place to go and no one to listen. It is not enough to have smoldering Myeloma and to be disabled and not able to work. My wife was told she is going to loose her job, which means we will loose our home and our medical. Now I have to stand by and watch my wife loose everything. My wife got a bum rap when she married me, for years my wife has had to work very hard without any help from me and then come home and take care of me. She would have been better off without me. I have worked hard ever since I was a kid; my parents did not have much money so I tried to help out at home and I eventually put myself through school. I have never taken a dime I did not work for. I have always tried to help people less fortunate than I mostly organizations that help children. I use to go to sleep when I was a kid wondering if there was anyone out there who cared about me and I promised myself if I could ever help a young person I would and I did. Tonight I go to sleep and wonder does anyone care. Thanks for a place to vent God Bless You All and good by.

[Sarah]

Re: If it were not for hard luck there would be no luck at a

by Sarah on Wed Apr 11, 2012 4:19 pm

Ragtop: You've come to the right place to vent, and I commend you for expressing your feelings. There's more room outside (the mind) than inside!

I really doubt your wife feels she would have been better off without you.......she's still hanging on to you! And she cared for you because she wanted to.

I hope you filed for, and were able to get, Disability.

There's lots of good support....good listeners.....good shoulders....good info......on this site. We care even though we are "faceless" friends.

Hugs.......

Sarah in MS
Wife/Caregiver to Bob

[Jenn]

Re: If it were not for hard luck there would be no luck at a

by Jenn on Thu Apr 12, 2012 5:26 pm

Hi Ragtop-

Remember when you and your wife said your wedding vows? Was "for better or for worse, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, until death we do part" said that day? You married a special woman, but she married a special man, and she chooses to stay with you. You must be doing a lot right! Times are indeed hard, but she stays because she loves YOU. Not your checkbook, not a heavy object that you once could lift, not the way you "used to be". You are still you, just a revised version.

You have every right to feel down about this pretty bad thing that has happened, but there is still so much to be grateful for. Think about when you've helped those kids - you made someone feel awesome and made them smile. Some kids go through life never knowing how awesome they are, and maybe, just maybe your good deeds moved them ahead in life enough and encouraged them to keep moving ahead.

Just writing the above made me smile and think of my husband. He can't lift anything anymore, and I know it bugs the heck out of him. It doesn't bother me that he can't do the chores around here anymore, because he is still HERE. I need him as much as he needs me.

Your wife probably feels the same way. Hang in there!