[RagtopSL]

Alone and lonely

by RagtopSL on Thu Mar 22, 2012 3:14 am

Well where do I start; by the grace of God I have had smoldering myeloma for almost 21 years. I have for most of this period of time worked in my job as an operation manager and other than that kept to my self. I have a wife and one son and for 21 years I have kept my feelings about my myeloma to myself. Now I am home every day by myself with only my loyal friend Hunter a 100 lb. yellow Lab. No friends and no relationship with my family. My wife is a good person; just absorbed in here career being the bread winner. My son like any 23 year old is working and into his own life. I feel very lonely and ready for the whatnot shelf. I am disabled and have other health issues besides my myeloma. I am ashamed that I no longer contribute to the support of my family. Thank you for letting me vent here. Sorry if my writing and spelling is poor.

God Bless You All
ragtopSL

[Joanne in Texas]

Re: Alone and lonely

by Joanne in Texas on Thu Mar 22, 2012 4:40 pm

I know how you feel. I too felt that way. Due to my sickness with multiple myeloma we lost everything. Our home and other financial issues popped up. My husband was our sole provider and we have 5 children ages 5,12,21,21, and 24. It has been hard for us. We lost one of ours sons in a car accident and now have our oldest severely ill with Multiple Sclerosis. I havent or dont have time to think about myself anymore cause i am fighting just to be here and be able to be near the ones I love. I use to keep things bottled up inside and was deathly afraid of dyng that it consumed my days, but then I thought to myself that this is time wasted and time I will never get back. Its through the grace of God that I am here and he is giving me this chance to do something with my life. Talk to your family and let them know how you are feeling. I know its hard but they love you and they will understand, also if you need someone to talk to you can count on me. There is nothing to be ashamed of you would be working if you could. I to am disabled thanks to the multiple myeloma and also other health issues. I hate being home but I have decided to put that negative energy into something good. I have ordered chickens and geese and geesh I dont know what I am doing but its something thats already in the works. lol God Bless you and please talk to your family and like i said I extend my hand , ears and shoulders to you. Joanne